Two years ago it was a bright and sunny Sunday morning. I got up to pay the bills, like I always did after receiving a paycheck. It was maddening the amount of money I made and how much was left after paying the bills. On the way to the office and the PC, I walked by a very dirty kitchen. The island that we ate on was covered with papers, unopened mail, and some odds and ends. The kitchen sink was full of dirty dishes that had been there for 2 weeks. It was a disgusting sight and turned my stomach, but I refused to clean it up. After all, I worked12 hour days outside of the house and my husband was the stay at home parent and our 2 children were in summer camp 5 days a week from 7:30 am when I dropped them off until 5:30 pm when I picked them up. I mean, the least he could do was freaking clean up his own mess!
I was angry - I had filed papers to end a then 15 year marriage 2 1/2 months prior to the bright and sunny Sunday morning. I was annoyed that the boys and I rarely ate at home but yet, the kitchen was a disgusting mess. What's more, there was kitty litter on the floor (cats tracking it) and animal fur on the wood floors that had not been vacuumed in how long. I guess remembering that day is making me a bit annoyed today. Breathe - Breathe - Breathe. After I finished paying the bills, I heard my sons wake up and run to find me and give me a yummy good morning hug. I asked what they wanted for breakfast and they said they weren't hungry and went back to their room. Their dad came out and made himself some breakfast and what he didn't finish he left on the kitchen island.
Since that day it's been me, the boys, 2 cats, a dog, and recently a bearded dragon living in our house. Our house is now much neater, albeit cluttered. The kitchen island has nothing on it, there are no dishes in the sink or litter tracked on the floor. The wood floors are vacuumed at least once a week, the toilets and bathroom are cleaned once a week, laundry is washed, foleded, and put away regularly, and the beds are made every morning. There is a sense of peace and structure in my home. It has not been perfect but the air is much lighter, happier.