After that wicked outburst in yesterday's post, I feel much better. It was like an online exorcism. However, I am certain that the "demons" will reappear - they often do. But for today (or at least for the moment) there exists a kinder, gentler Irene.
I had my exit interview today and I was dreading it. I was dreading it because when I leave a job I often get really paranoid. I start thinking, "I wonder if they know where I'm going and if they will try screw it up for me." Uh-huh I'm definitely paranoid when it comes to changing jobs.
I suppose I wouldn't be so paranoid if I just came out and said what I was doing - none of this hiding in secrecy thing. But, I think that some things are just best unsaid and really, it's nobody's business what I'm doing when I leave. On the other hand, I always feel like I owe them an explanation. Oooh, I really have issues don't I? You can blame my guilt-ridden upbringing for the issues. Guilt and shame seemed to be a big thing with my parents.
Anyway, the exit interview wasn't bad at all. The HR person was really nice and even said that I could come back in the future. Nevermind that she assumed that I was leaving to be a stay at home mom - who was I to correct her? When I told David about what the HR person said he replied, "I knew that they would say that. Things just work out for you and you thought that they would tell you never to come back."
The issues that I had yesterday still exist. David and I still have to juggle our finances; he still isn't getting a regular paycheck from G Company; and the issue that I have with one of my family members still exists. But, in the end I still have a pretty good life. I still have a gorgeous little boy (who won't sleep through the night but I'm told that will change eventually), my family is healthy, my sister and her husband are expecting their first son in a matter of weeks, and the company that I left doesn't totally hate me.
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