While last week was a complete disaster, this week seems to hold a little glimmer of hope. I have a presentation to do this week plus a couple of meetings so that helps me focus on things better. Even better than having a full schedule and lots to do to prepare for the meetings, I have a feeling of overall contentment.
The pessimist in me thinks that instead of enjoying the state of happiness I'm in, I should worry because it will only be a matter of time before the state of unhappiness sets in. It's almost like I shouldn't enjoy the happiness and instead should be worrying about the future. Am I doing the right things for my family? Are the kids happy? Is David happy? Am I happy? And, on and on and on.
It sounds strange, but I know that I'm not the only one who's like this. But, I'm turning a corner. I realize how lucky I am and when good stuff happens and the "I shouldn't be happy" thoughts cross my mind, I stop myself and think about the good stuff. I take a second and enjoy the happiness for a little while.
Here's to a better week!
*sigh* i'm feeling a little of the crankypants lately... =( but i hear ya... one minute i'm all happy pappy but at the same time i'm just waiting for the unhappy to hit me too... and it finally has... i wonder how long this will last. i'm onvacation in vegas next week. so maybe (hopefully) that'll snap me out of it... *double sigh*
Posted by: melanie | November 15, 2006 at 03:58 PM
i think i'm channeling you again...
or vice versa...
or you're filipino...
or catholic...
don't mind me... i'm the family doomsayer...
Posted by: mamazilla | November 17, 2006 at 11:46 PM