Today is Alex's 2nd birthday. David and I keep thinking that he is older than 2 because he's such a character. We've survived the constant feeding, the learning to walk, and the counting and colors and shapes. We're almost out of the "scary tantrum and head banging" phase. We've survived the falling out of bed because I'm too stubborn to listen to you guys and not jump on the bed. And, we've survived the first (and hopefully the last) trip to the emergency room.
I look at Alex and wonder how it is that the almost 10 pound baby we brought home not so long ago has become this laughing and active child. Both Nick and Alex have grown up so fast and in the blink of an eye they've become these little people with definite likes, dislikes and their own personalities. It's amazing how quickly time passes.
Happy Birthday, Alex!
Posted by: Amy | December 27, 2007 at 07:40 PM
Your son is simply adorable.
In regards to the post after this one. I just turned 36 and my oldest will be turning 18 in two weeks. Although I am new to reading your blog so I can't say I know you to really say your not a bad person. I can say is some of what you are feeling is normal. My older two children are 15 months apart, which means that at the age of 19 I had two in diapers. There were many a night I cried myself to sleep thinking I wasn't good enough at this to keep going. Then there was the divorce and the aftermath of hiding the abuse I received from their Dad all those years came crashing down. In the beginning they thought I was the bad one for leaving their "daddy" and breaking up the family. I honestly can not tell you how many times I plotted out "ending it all". I had even thought of trying to make it look like a car accident so the kids wouldn't know I had done it myself. In the end I knew it was a selfish thing. What kept me going was deep down knowing how devastated my kids would be without me.
Regardless of how we feel we failed our kids need us.
If you are interested I have a few books that helped me heal. Heal from my broken childhood and 14 years of an abusive marriage. Even if you are not the victim of any abuse the books helped me focus myself to who I wanted to be. Let me know and I can email the titles to you.
You're in my prayers....hugs
L
Posted by: Laura | December 28, 2007 at 10:21 PM
what a cutie patootie! happy bday alex!
Posted by: Mary Anne | December 31, 2007 at 01:24 AM