After last week, I am dreading the coming week. I know that's a terrible attitude to have, but it's the one I have this blissful Sunday morning. I didn't talk about what happened last week, but suffice it to say that my nemesis has become the project manager and I can only imagine that it will get worse. If I get kicked off this project - much to the discontentment of some of my project teammates who work for the client - I can leave knowing that I did the very best I could and that my leaving was political in nature.
Am I sure that I'm going to get kicked off the project? No I'm not sure, but I am sure that if it DOES happen, that it will be the first time in all of my working career for something this "terrible" to happen. And, in the grand scheme of things it isn't the worst thing that could happen. Any time I am on a project, or change jobs, or have a change in my life I always know that it's for a reason and this time it's no different.
I know that I am on this project for a reason whether it is to learn to confront people who are unhappy with me; to learn that work should not define me (a lesson I seem to get over and over again); to make new work contacts; or to realize that even though I try and I am competent that people aren't always going to feel that way about me. I hate life lessons but they're inevitable. I wish my life were like a situation comedy on television where I have an issue and within 30 minutes or so, the issue has been resolved. And along the way, I have some fun or bond with someone; maybe there's a laugh track or two.
But, I know that life is not like that and I cannot avoid these "lessons" I keep getting. The good thing is - because there always IS a good thing - that I'm still learning and I still have a terrific family. Nobody has been maimed, killed, or with serious injury. There is nothing that has been done that cannot be undone or forgotten and in the end, that's better than having issues resolved in 30 minutes - complete with laugh track.
YIKES. here i am complaining about the weather report for the week... hang in there! :)
Posted by: mamazilla | January 20, 2008 at 02:20 PM