Yesterday was the beginning of my fifth week on my project and I'm crossing my fingers that it will be a good week. I'm refusing to believe any indication that it won't be although events that have happened so far (all before 11:00 on Monday) could lead one to believe that this week will be crappy.
Part of me is wishing that I get pulled off the project. Although it wouldn't be great to be on the bench unassigned, it would probaby add a little strength to my mental state. Do I want to turn tail and run? No, not by my own valition. Am I going to sabatoge myself on this project - Nope. I'm just annoyed and right now I question everything - what the color of the sky is and what month we're in.
And, in spite of how I feel I still believe that my job is the one that is the best for me. How can this be? Because I cannot imagine myself doing anything else where I would be happy. And, even though I'm not exactly happy in my present situation, I know that it is not permanent. I am planning that when this is all over, I will have delivered what I was supposed to for the client and that an ERP project will be there for me to work on. In the end, all one in an unhappy situation really has is hope.
Part of me is wishing that I get pulled off the project. Although it wouldn't be great to be on the bench unassigned, it would probaby add a little strength to my mental state. Do I want to turn tail and run? No, not by my own valition. Am I going to sabatoge myself on this project - Nope. I'm just annoyed and right now I question everything - what the color of the sky is and what month we're in.
And, in spite of how I feel I still believe that my job is the one that is the best for me. How can this be? Because I cannot imagine myself doing anything else where I would be happy. And, even though I'm not exactly happy in my present situation, I know that it is not permanent. I am planning that when this is all over, I will have delivered what I was supposed to for the client and that an ERP project will be there for me to work on. In the end, all one in an unhappy situation really has is hope.
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