There are things that you cannot buy more of - time, money, love (TRUE love). Right now I wish I could buy some peace of mind because I'm feeling very VERY stressed out. Since David and I decided that he should stay home with the boys instead of putting them in daycare, it's been a squeeze at home. The boys are getting older and that means school tuition. One of the things that I will not compromise on is their education and I'm driving myself crazy trying to figure out how to save for their college fund as well as fund their preschools. Seriously, even the park district preschool costs something.
We will be okay, but I worry about the future and retirement too. I worry that we won't be able to retire or take care of ourselves if, god-forbid, I lose my job. Yeah, I worried about that stuff before we had the boys and even before I reached my 30s, but now the worry seems much more real.
So what touched this fit of worry of on a weekend when I'm supposed to be enjoying NOT working? I'm eligible for my company's 401K and I received the paperwork to contribute. It touched off a budgeting frenzy that I've been trying to avoid; I know that I need to contribute to my 401K and I have some already set aside from my previous employers. However, the amount that I can save without having to get a second job doesn't seem like much. Yes, yes - I know that a little of something is better than nothing, but still it's worrisome.
After spending the bulk of this morning putting together a spreadsheet and reviewing what we need to pay each month, my stomach started to churn. It was that terrible feeling of worry that I hate. I suppose on the plus side, I should be happy that David is home with the boys and that even though we're squeezed I know that they are with someone that loves them as much as I do.
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