A year ago, the turmoil in my life which seemed to come out of nowhere started. It was the beginning of putting our house on the market; looking for a new house; dealing with the autism witch-hunt; and the huge fall out with someone very important in my life. March 2007 was the beginning of a very tough year. Things weren't easy before March 2007 because we had a 2 year old and a 1 year old but after the events of March 2007, things seemed nearly impossible. By April I really thought that I would not survive another month - it was maddening.
And, now I look back on all that happened and I have to say that I truly cannot believe we made it through that period intact. Usually I would look back and say that it wasn't that bad and maybe I'm still too close to the events, but it was hands down the WORST experience in my life. I'm glad we survived as a family - but I cannot help but see how profoundly those events have changed me - especially the fall out with the person very important in my life. Things are much better with that person now and it's almost like the fall out never happened. But, I'm different.
I'm less sure of myself in the decisions that I make - personally and professionally. I'm less sure of myself, in general, and it will be tough to build that back up again. After all, the events of what happened to begin the roller coaster ride a mere 12 months ago, should never have happened. But they did and we're okay. As a family we are better than okay and in the end, isn't that all that matters?
Hooray for a better year!
Posted by: Mary Anne | March 28, 2008 at 02:10 AM