Lately things have been going well - the boys and the hubby are healthy and happy and work has been going well too. I enjoy the client I'm working for and the work that I do is challenging; best of all there is no drama and nobody is making me feel like I have no idea what I'm doing. I've been going to the gym regularly and am starting to feel much better. In fact, the mountainous set of stairs from Union Station to Madison Street is something that I can tackle without feeling winded. Amazing.
So, of course, I am worried wondering, "Is this the calm before the storm?. I don't think it is in my nature to be happy or maybe it's just not human nature, in general, to be happy. I was listening to the radio and there was a statistic that was read where 43% of Americans felt that they were thriving and 51% felt that they were either not thriving or suffering. Yes, I realize that the total does not equal to 100% but that is beside the point. The point is that more than half of Americans aren't happy.
Could it just be our pessimistic nature or maybe we're just afraid to be happy. When I heard that statistic, I had to ask myself where I fell - was I one of the 43% or one of the 51%? And, although I had a cold today and wasn't feeling my best (a 102 degree fever will do that to you on even your best days), I had to say that I would consider myself one of the lucky "thriving" ones.
Sure, things could be better. I could make more money; my oldest son could be a genius; I could be thinner, beautiful, or whatever. But, overall I would have to quote Joe Walsh and say that life's been good to me so far. We have 2 healthy and cute toddler boys and a job that has benefits and pays enough to allow one of us to stay at home. David and I are in both relatively good health and both sets of parents are still with us (even with the nagging it's a blessing).
There are so many things that I could dwell on that could be better, but I'm thinking that would be a waste of time. I am fortunate to have what I have and I know that. But, I'm left wondering if saying that I'm thriving out loud will jinx it all. I think I say it with my fingers crossed and hope that if/when the not so great stuff comes along, it won't be anything that I cannot handle.
Try not to take this the wrong way. You think a lot Irene. Whether it's in your nature or not, try just "being" for one hour. Just be. And don't think. I do it every day and it makes me feel better. That and ten deep breaths ten times a day. Sigh.
Posted by: Amy | April 30, 2008 at 09:48 PM
Life should be great. You have such a beautiful and healthy family.
Posted by: Mary Anne | May 02, 2008 at 04:45 PM