Tomorrow I return to work. It's Sunday and as expected, I'm bummed. I don't think it has to do with the fact that I have to go back to work but more that now I have to deal with the "real life" I actually was able to leave behind. The horrible project that I was on prior to my current project is rearing its ugly head. Not because the previous client is making my life difficult but because things at my company - my practice in particular - are a feeling the pinch of the tough times.
There were lay-offs in my practice and my name came up. Nevermind that I am on a client that I found myself and that I'm billing at a rate twice what my company pays me. But my name came up because I was labeled a "trouble maker" - * sigh *. Maybe I am a trouble maker because I won't sit and put up with crap that is non-essential crap. I'm not good with putting up with something if it means that the product I will deliver is less than acceptable. If that is the case, then I guess I am a "trouble maker."
Then, there is the fact that my manager is not happy at my current company. His practice is pretty much being dismantled and he has yet to get the sales support he needs to bring in projects. Actually, all the projects that have come in to our practice have been through previous relationships from the consultants; none of them have come in through sales. Pitiful. But, all this means that things at my current company are uncomfortable.
It was so nice to have the past week off even if most of my stuff on my "To Do" list didn't get done. The boys and I hung out and napped; we went on pony rides and I got to take them to their summer classes; I also had the chance to hang out with my sister and her kids a little. It was nice and even though it was rough going at times, it made me realize how much I really want to be home. It's hard work - harder than going to the office - but at least you're doing something for yourself and your family. Yeah, yeah the paycheck is something for my family but it's not the same.
Sorry things are rough--it's not easy to balance work & family.
Posted by: Asianmommy | June 22, 2008 at 07:40 PM
I just happened across your "Grey Skies" post today. I needed it more than you could know. I'm a SAHM who's husband doesn't value what I do in that role and I really needed to read your last few sentences in this post. Thanks for validating what I do. It's nice to hear it for a change, even if it's from a random blogger that BlogHer spotlighted.
Posted by: cakeburnette | June 23, 2008 at 07:56 AM