One of the things you should know about me is that if you send me an e-mail or comment I will send you a response. Today I wrote the following response to Asianmommy: "You know the funny thing about life is you get some good stuff with the bad stuff and hopefully it all evens out! " I really do believe that it somehow evens out and the trick is to live through the crappy stuff.
In the past 12 to 18 months I have changed jobs 3 times and the road between each job change has not been fun. All along the way we've moved twice and have tried very hard to keep things predictable for the boys. It hasn't been easy and I've said time and time again that I am due for a good year. I have come to realize that I never know what is coming my way and to think that I have any control over it - other than how I react to things - is completely foolish.
As I was sitting in the first day of my week long training class, I started thinking about my career, the changes, and how in the big scheme of things I'm actually blessed. Blessed because I have the privilege of being a mother to 2 toddler sons and blessed because (although ridiculously rocky at times) I have been able to continue to work in challenging positions. But, at the same time I felt stressed because I honestly don't know how I got to where I'm at now.
What do I mean? Today the Chicago practice lead of my practice at the consulting company I currently work for gave notice. Now, I am ONE of FOUR people left in my practice. The company I work for keeps insisting that they are committed to growing the practice I am working under but their actions don't support this. The work situation I am in is not ideal although I am working for a client that I like. Still, it doesn't look good for me at my current consulting company and that is what is making me wonder, "HOW in the world did I get into this predicament?"
It's been a roller coaster of a ride for me today. At the end of the day I was happy to be home with the comfortable chaos that is my family. All the work stuff will work out somehow and in the meantime I will just have to realize that I will have to take the good with the bad and the bad with the ugly.
You're right--we are blessed in many ways. Not so blessed in some ways, but grateful for what we do have.
Posted by: Asianmommy.com | July 29, 2008 at 12:36 PM