I took a practice exam and sat through 200 questions of the most boring crap. And, the end result? I got a 58% percent. Yes, that's right - I did a little better than if I just randomly guessed. So, this morning I am hyperventilating and ready to cry. I'm ready to cry because I spent $3,000.00 of my family's savings on a class and I am nowhere NEAR ready to take this freakin' exam.
Yeah, I know that eventually I will get there and it will take a little study time on my part, but exactly WHEN am I going to find time to study? I will have to clear time on my already crammed schedule and I will have to let David know that I will need to study. For how long exactly? I'm not sure. I just have to study and take another practice exam or two to figure out when I'm ready.
I hate this mainly because I'm not used to having academic crap NOT come so easily to me. Yeah, yeah I probably have "Mommy Brain" but honestly being "smart" was something that seemed to come so easily to me. It was one of my better traits - I wasn't the "cute" one or the "funny" one, but I was the "smart" one. I am sure that I'm just being ridiculous, right? Right? I'm just being ridiculous? Ugh - what if my brain HAS gone to mush!?!
That song, "Stupid Girl" by Garbage is now looping over and over in my head. I think I just need to get up and walk away. I swear if I continue on like this, I am going to find a nice comfortable spot in the nearest loony bin!
Don't let the practice exam get you down! I always figured that the practice exams were harder than the real thing, because they're there to prep you, you know, prepare you for the worst? It'll be OK. Just breathe!
Posted by: Asianmommy.com | August 02, 2008 at 08:55 AM
I know what you mean completely! I was the 'smart' one too, and now after my son I'm a C student instead of a straight A one. :-( I just can't focus like I used to.
Don't worry, you'll get it and I agree the preps are usually REALLY hard. Hang in there & good luck!
Posted by: Jennifer | August 02, 2008 at 10:43 AM
You are cute, funny, and smart. I'm pretty sure you are all of the above. How else would you have such beautiful children? It's all about making time to study.
Posted by: Mary Anne | August 03, 2008 at 01:17 AM