Ugh - I've Been Called "Cute"

Recently I wrote a post about how I felt about NOT feeling attractive anymore.  When I re-read what I wrote, I realized that I do care that I don't feel attractive anymore.  I probably felt bad for more than the 5 seconds that I admitted to in the post I wrote.  So, what brought on the change of heart for me?

I haven't really been taking care of myself since even before the boys came around and the last time that I really worked out and tried to live a healthier lifestyle (before more recent events) was from 1997 to 1998.  That's a whole decade ago.  Now that I have more "grown up" pressures and responsibilities, I think that it's high time that I took better care of myself.  And, I have been.

In the past 4 months or so I have lost a little over 20 pounds and 5% body fat.  Although I have a long way to go, I do feel better about myself.  I've even taken the metabolic test again - the one that I wrote about in an April post - to see how I've improved over the past 4 months.  The results were impressive and I'm proud of the progress I've made.

Apparently people around me that I see everyday are starting to notice a change too and I've gotten some nice compliments.  I've also received some constructive criticism such as, "You're super cute - why don't you dress better?"  I appreciate the constructive criticism and have tried to take it to heart, but the "super cute" part of the comment made me want to gag up my lunch and a lung.  Eeeeew!  Cute is for things like bunny rabbits and babies.  Things that are fluffy and round.  And, I so don't want to be ROUND anymore.  I've never been fluffy before and don't want to start now.   I suppose if I keep doing what I'm doing, maybe one day I will be "hot" or "beautiful" - or at least my outsides will be.

Comments

[Amy]

Irene, you ARE hot. If I were a man, you'd be in serious trouble. Heh.

[Asianmommy.com]

Congrats! Losing 20 pounds is amazing. Being only 5'1", I've been called "cute" my whole entire life. I guess there's worse things...

[Mama Eye]

I think it's hard to separate the concepts of cute and hot from one's personality. For ex, to me Jenny McCarthy is cute because she is a goof. I wouldn't think of her as hot, really (though the Playboy covers say otherwise). Whereas the entirely different personality of Catherine Zeta Jones plus her good looks seems to make the "hot" label fit better. Your bubbly personality is all part of the cuteness is just what I'm saying.