At work we were talking about age and aging and how we're handling getting older. It started when one of my co-workers came by to ask a question about the project she was working on and somehow the topic of conversation moved towards what kids today would remember when they grew up. For example, our children today will not know what it's like to NOT have a microwave or cell phones - similar to how I cannot remember a time without a television.
The conversation made a few of us realize that we will turn 40 within the next few years. In my case, it will be January of 2011 which is not that far away. I have to admit that I'm a little fearful of turning 40 and I'm not entirely sure why. I mean, I couldn't wait until I turned 30 and was so excited to leave the angst of my 20s behind. When I think about the past almost decade, the term change comes to mind. My 30s is when I changed careers, purchased my first house, had children, and went to graduate school.
The later half of my 30s has been very challenging and I guess I'm fearful of turning 40 because of that. I wonder if getting older means that life will get even more difficult. Then there are the physical changes. The stretch marks and the saggy skin that came with the boys will probably never leave. And, although I don't have any noticeable facial wrinkles I know that they're coming. I don't want to get old and I am less looking forward to having it appear on my face and body.
Every year it becomes more of a battle to keep age at bay. I know that it is inevitable that I will get older and it will show. I'm vain - I know it. But, I think that most of my vanity comes from the fact that I'd like to hold on to the little attractiveness that I have. Sheesh, I'm cursed - not only am I vain, but I'm insecure too!
I'm closing in on 40, too. Yikes! High school seems like yesterday.
Posted by: Asianmommy | September 01, 2008 at 06:29 PM