It's strange not being able to tell people where I'm going to be working and by people I mean the people that I work with at the client and the people at the consulting company. I've always been pretty mum on where I'm going when I give notice because I would prefer that people know that I'm leaving and that's it. Usually, I tell some close co-workers where I am headed to because I know that I can trust them and so far, this tactic has worked.
This time, I have told NOBODY where I'm going and it's hard to keep that secret. Okay, I've told ONE person but they don't work with me and don't know who I currently work for so it's like telling the wind. One of the things that I know that I'm good at is being discreet. There have been a number of secrets, such as knowing a full week ahead of time that a co-worker is going to get let go, that I've kept to myself. For some reason people trust me with their secrets and feel that they can tell me almost anything.
I think that this is the case because I do keep people's secrets. Good news of engagements and pregnancies as well as bad news of who's getting let go or who's having an affair are not my news to tell - unless of course the person who tells me the news asks me to say something. I enjoy my friendships with my clients, co-workers, and everyday friends and am proud that they confide in me. I am also proud that they know I won't go blabbing their news or secrets all over the place.
But, I have a hard time keeping my own secrets. After all, it is my decision to tell or not to tell and because I'm very honest it's difficult for me NOT to tell. There are other secrets of mine that I keep and lately one of the secrets is eating away at me. However, to let the cat out of the bag would bring on events that I am just not prepared to deal with at the moment. And, I'm not sure if there will ever be a time when I talk about it.
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