Yeah, this post is going to be about "the event" - deal with it. It won't seem to go away because I deal with it on a daily basis - one of the people involved works with me. And, I work pretty closely with this person so it seems as though I work very hard to forget "the event". .For a while there, I actually thought I had worked past it but it ended up coming back to haunt me a moment later.
Trust me, it's more annoying for me to live it than it is for you all to read about it. But I am getting better, really I am. On the days that I'm not "better" I wish for something to help me forget. I'm not talking about multiple shots of tequila or a lobotomy or a hit on the other person. I'm talking about something similar to Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind - a procedure that will erase selected memories.
Truthfully, there are moments of the event that I wish I could relive in my mind - sick as that may sound. But, to even think of any of that would mean that I would have to relive the entire event and, really, that isn't something I want to do. Life would be so much easier for me if I weren't such a colossal mess!
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