Almost exactly 6 months ago, I posted this post about how I felt invisible. It was a short entry stating that I felt invisible. I didn't talk about what made me feel that way, but I have a feeling that I had a day similar to the one I had today.
My day didn't start off that great today. I think it was probably the weather - day 101 (I'm exaggerating) of gloomy weather. Then I felt as though I had a zillion things to do and none of them were the least bit challenging. Think keying numbers into an Excel spreadsheet.
Then there is the fact that my presence is only made known at work when someone needs something. Or having to be "the bigger person" when it comes to dealing with a certain someone that I don't want to talk to. I asked one of my co-workers why I always had to be the bigger person when dealing with this certain someone and I was told that I could be vindictive but I'd only be happy for 20 minutes before I started feeling bad. My response was that it would probably be the best 20 minutes of my day.
The day ended with me coming home to my boys (that was the high point - usually is) and listening to the kids argue and David shouting. Sometimes when I come home to the melee, I feel like turning around and walking out the door. I half-way hope that by leaving and walking in the house again, the scene before me will change.
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