"They" say that when the going get's tough, the tough get going. And, while I'd love to believe that saying is true I am starting to wonder if "they" know anything. The going hasn't gotten that tough for me - no more than usual - but I am finding it hard to be the "tough get going part."
In addition to the normal crazy that is going on in my life right now (the boys being "released" for summer) there are things that are home related that I'm finding that I'm behind in. For example, I remembered on Saturday during a ride home from an errand that I had forgotten to sign up for the tuition plan at school. I'm hoping that the boys don't lose their spot in preschool because that would not only be a failure on my part, but a devastation for the boys. Both of them need to have a regular schedule. And, while it's preschool for them and I'm sure we could find another one, the comfort that the oldest boy feels with this school cannot be bought.
Then there are the bills that I woke up early this morning to pay and the "to do" list at work that I must face. It's bad enough that I put in a near 60 hour work week last week, but I honestly have no idea how in the world I will ever get to the top 5 things on my list at work. There is this ever-present feeling of failure I have for both work and home.
I'm grouchy and stressed and haven't made time for myself to get to the gym. I'm eating horribly and I'm not sleeping (which is pretty much the norm for me - the sleeping part). I would love to figure out a time and place where I could unwind, but trying to schedule that makes me twitchy. Whoever it is - this "they" - that comes up with these lovely sayings, I'd love to meet them because I would give them a piece of my "to do" list to take care of.
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