about who and what I usedto be. Yesterday I went to a former co-worker's wake. Bob O. was in his early 60s when he passed away in his sleep last Friday morning. He wasn't sick and by all accounts he wasn't even feeling bad; he just went to sleep one night and didn't wake up again the next morning. Bob O. was truly one of the nicest people I knew.
When I attended his wake last night, I was able to see a lot of people who I hadn't seen in 10 years. There were co-workers that I've kept in touch with via e-mail and telephone calls, but I truly had not seen any of those people in 10 years. It was good to see them, but I wish that it was under better circumstances - a wedding, baptism, or even a birth.
Seeing old friends again made me realize that in the past 10 years, I had grown up a little. And, I started to miss who I was 10 years ago. In 10 years, I have made some good decisions and some really, REALLY bad ones. I've changed jobs a zillion times and have been pregnant TWICE! I've lived at 4 different addresses and have earned a degree and a professional certification. I've also changed careers, have become a bit more responsible, and have gained and lost some weight.
When it comes down to it, life seems to move at the speed of light and before we know it, we end up being pulled back (or at least reminded) of our past. And, today I am wishing for a bit of the past back. Ten years ago I worked with people who were truly like a little family. Even though a large multinational corporation bought the company (and that's how I ended up working there), the people who worked there still treated each other like family. I know now that I will never work in that type of environment ever again and I wished I knew what I had at the time.
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