It always seems that this time of year I get into a "thinking" mood. Maybe it's because of the weather - the winds pick up and it gets cold - or maybe it's because of the season - it's darker sooner. For whatever reason, my mind goes into overdrive. In my head my thoughts turn over and over and over. And, there are things that I think that I can't say or don't want to talk about.
Little nuggets of thoughts and feelings that I keep to myself because I'm afraid that they'll be seen as stupid or silly. In reality, I'm afraid of being judged. But, that doesn't stop me from having those thoughts and feelings. I've read that they're "normal" and thus, I am "normal" which isn't necessarily something that makes me feel better.
In the end, I sit across from friends and family and carry on at work without saying what I think or feel and I suppose, it's better that way.
Little nuggets of thoughts and feelings that I keep to myself because I'm afraid that they'll be seen as stupid or silly. In reality, I'm afraid of being judged. But, that doesn't stop me from having those thoughts and feelings. I've read that they're "normal" and thus, I am "normal" which isn't necessarily something that makes me feel better.
In the end, I sit across from friends and family and carry on at work without saying what I think or feel and I suppose, it's better that way.
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