I don't REALLY feel an anxiety attack coming, but I do have this achey, twisting feeling in the pit of my stomach. I know what's causing it and I know it's making me feel awful. But, I have no idea what I need or want to do about it. I don't know how to make it go away - except maybe breathing very deeply into a paper bag.
I remember this feeling would creep into the pit of my stomach as a child, but it was triggered by things like hiding a kitten from my parents in our bathroom or not doing my homework. Never in a zillion years would I have guessed that I would ever grow up let alone have these feelings in the pit of my stomach. When I feel like this, I just want to find my parents and have them make it better. It always seemed to work when I was a kid, but I doubt that my parents can fix what ails me now.
I look at my sons and know that they sometimes have that feeling too. It's natural. But, when I look at them and they're looking back at me, I don't think that they know that I have that feeling sometimes too. I'm not so sure that 30 years from now that they will know what to do when they have that feeling in the pit of their stomachs and maybe have a child of their own who is counting on them to hold it together. I never imagined being an adult would be so - well - so HARD. Not sure why I thought that. Maybe because when I had that yucky feeling in my tummy, my parents so effortlessly made it go away. I never imagined that maybe they felt the same way sometimes.